Sunday, July 09, 2006
Start of My Demise
All is not well.
I did nothing for my seventh month of sobriety. I haven’t been to a meeting in a while. I haven’t really even updated my blog in a while; although I’m working on my next post in my head.
All this started when my digital camera took a dump. Like the time when my laptop failed, I simply opened it up and started looking for the problem. I got as far as you see and started to realize that I may not be able to repair it myself.
It failed when I was plugging in the USB cable in the dark. I didn’t think I had it in properly, so I jiggled it. After that, it never started up again. I think I shorted something out. I’m going to continue working on it, but honestly, I don’t think I can repair it. Maybe a camera repair shop would have more luck, but I can’t afford that right now.
Actually, what halted my repair was that as I was testing voltage on as many leads as I could when I noticed a (relatively large) capacitor. It’s the black cylinder in the upper right corner of the posted picture and is used to store up energy for the flash. On it reads, “350v”! Sure enough, I checked the voltage and it reports 240v, so it’s still charged. Cross those contacts and you could create your own firework display.
It hit me pretty hard, because photography really makes me happy. I do own a 35mm SLR, which I love, but I can’t afford to develop film right now. Maybe it’s enough just to load it with film and shoot when I can.
Any images that you see are either from the Internet, from a camera someone lent me (like the photo in this post, obviously), or archives shot from before my digital camera failed.
So, it’s made me sad, out of balance, and I’ve noticed a lot has changed in my life since. More on that in the next post...