Sunday, July 09, 2006

Start of My Demise

All is not well.

I did nothing for my seventh month of sobriety. I haven’t been to a meeting in a while. I haven’t really even updated my blog in a while; although I’m working on my next post in my head.

All this started when my digital camera took a dump. Like the time when my laptop failed, I simply opened it up and started looking for the problem. I got as far as you see and started to realize that I may not be able to repair it myself.

It failed when I was plugging in the USB cable in the dark. I didn’t think I had it in properly, so I jiggled it. After that, it never started up again. I think I shorted something out. I’m going to continue working on it, but honestly, I don’t think I can repair it. Maybe a camera repair shop would have more luck, but I can’t afford that right now.

Actually, what halted my repair was that as I was testing voltage on as many leads as I could when I noticed a (relatively large) capacitor. It’s the black cylinder in the upper right corner of the posted picture and is used to store up energy for the flash. On it reads, “350v”! Sure enough, I checked the voltage and it reports 240v, so it’s still charged. Cross those contacts and you could create your own firework display.

It hit me pretty hard, because photography really makes me happy. I do own a 35mm SLR, which I love, but I can’t afford to develop film right now. Maybe it’s enough just to load it with film and shoot when I can.

Any images that you see are either from the Internet, from a camera someone lent me (like the photo in this post, obviously), or archives shot from before my digital camera failed.

So, it’s made me sad, out of balance, and I’ve noticed a lot has changed in my life since. More on that in the next post...

Without Wax,


Fenris_Ulf said...

Check these links out..
Cheap Digital Disposable Camera Hacks for multi use.. right up your alley.

And attend some meetings don't fall out of the habit.... :)

Designer Girl said...

Hey, Wax. So sorry about your camera. That really sucks.

Let us know what's going on when you feel ready to. This is your blog, so post what you feel like writing when you feel like writing it.

Cindy said...

Waxie...get to a meeting. I love reading your posts and I really want to see you make it through this. It totally sucks about your camera, and I'm sorry. I know what it's like when you have this one thing that makes you happy then it goes to shit. Good luck.

Cindy said...

PS - Happy Seven Months. At least get that chip....xoxo

Holly Goes said...


When I hurt my calf I wasn't able to play squash - which, as you know from my blog, I love. In order to keep in shape, I tried swimming - which it turned out I loved!!! If I hadn't had what I considered to be a big setback, I never would have tried swimming at all. So what seemed like a crisis was maybe God's way of telling me to diversify and find other interests?

Are you at all interested in drawing or painting? Capture beauty and life in other ways for a while?

dAAve said...

Glad that you're 7 months into this thing.
Sorry about the camera, but it's sure not worth drinking over. Actually, nothing is worth drinking over, unless we wanna get drunk and make things just a bit worse.

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