Saturday, February 03, 2007

Why Doesn't God Help?

"Why does this have to be so difficult?"

Working in the lab, a co-worker who’s going through recovery asked me this question. Normally, I stay anonymous at the work place, but I’d been discovered by one who recognized my medallion photo on a sample CD I created. I’d totally forgotten to remove those images when I created it.

“I mean, I work hard, I stay abstinent, yet people still treat me like shit.” I guess she’s thinking she’ll find a sympathetic ear. Darla scares me because I want to stay anonymous in the work place. However, she did find me out through the anonymous medallion. I mean, really, nobody knows about that unless they’ve been exposed to it.
“I do what I’m supposed to. I show up on time. I cover shifts. Why can’t I get the hours?”

My answer, “Sobriety is difficult. You’re exposed to life as if it’s the first time. If you want to participate in life, you must re-learn the rules that you were taught young and chose to ignore. And sometimes, you have to do it without a teacher.”

“Will you be my teacher?”

God, “I don’t know.” I gave her no promises.

Without Wax,

6 comments:

Trudging said...

If you are asking for advice, steer her to a woman in recovery. You guys can still talk about recovery stuff at work.

mAAry-AAnne said...

Hi there, although I've dropped by a few times I dont think I've posted here before. You're situation is one that many people in recovery can relate to. When I've come across a similar situation I usually tell the person upfront that I really respect my anonymity and that I would like them to honor that as well. I might also (like trudging suggested) direct them to others in recovery.Hope that helps.

sincerelysober said...

You are both right. When I was earlier on in recovery, I'd been tempted to take that 13th step, but I don't have that urge (thankfully) and know that she needs female guidance. However, I have not been attending meetings. Any female I'd direct her towards would be an old number.

I should, but it wasn't my first thought. My first thought was to tough it out. That's bad.

Patrick said...

Greetings Sincerely Sober
I wonder if this might interest you:

The 12 Steps Down To Hell

I imagine 12 Step recovery programs are a slow slide into the jaws of Satan. I was involved with this evil “satanic cult” for over 30 years but was saved through the power of Jesus Christ. He directed me to a therapist who was into “real” recovery, not the mind destroying, soul destroying, cult, which is AA. I have met two Steppers recently & I imagine they are completely devoid of any emotion or insight. I feel pain because both these men are decent human beings but AA has destroyed their individuality & they have no idea how to relate apart from expounding AA propaganda. I imagine Hell to be a continuous flow of AA meetings without any light at the end of the tunnel because one never recovers'. I beg you people who are in 12 Step programs, to get out before it is too late.

How does one recover when one is handing one’s power over to AA. The 12 Steps were written out of Wilson’s head, he certainly didn’t get his guidance from the Bible. I imagine he was an agent of Satan & he & Smith’s “cult religion” has filled millions of Steppers with their anti - Christ propaganda.

Step Three of AA is "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him." While many in the Oxford Group placed their faith in Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour, there was much leeway given. Shoemaker, a leader of the Oxford Group, says, "The true meaning of faith is self-surrender to God." He further explains:
Surrender to whatever you know about Him, or believe must be the truth about Him. Surrender to Him, if necessary, in total ignorance of Him. Far more important that you touch Him than that you understand Him at first. Put yourself in His hands. Whatever He is, as William James said, He is more ideal than we are. Make the leap. Give yourself to Him.
Aside from capitalizing the "H," which Christians do to refer to the God of the Bible, "Him" could refer to any god of one’s own making.

Can you see what is happening to you? Ask Jesus to take control of you lives, read the Bible & instead of 12 Step groups go to Bible study groups. Burn your Big Book or use it as toilet paper. Can you see the difference: With The 12 Steps, you never recover but with John 3:16 you are guaranteed Eternal Salvation. The “ball is in your court” Get out while you can, Steppe, or end uo an SHIFT SHAPING REPTILE [Mill Wilson Clone]

Peace Be With You

PS: I am a recovered alcoholic with over 21 years of sobriety

AUSSIE said...

Nowhere in the 12 steps does it say that you should quit drinking, or help anyone else to quit drinking, either. Nowhere do the words SOBRIETY, RECOVERY, ABSTINENCE, HEALTH, HAPPINESS, JOY, & LOVE appear in the 12 Steps. The word ‘alcohol’ is only used once, when it was PATCHED into the 1st Step for the word “sin.” But Wilson wrote “ We are powerless over ‘alcohol’… Oxford Group Slogan; “We are powerless over sin & have been defeated by it.

You have joined a “satanic cult,” [AA] “Sincerely Sober”! Get out now, before AA & all these other demons [BLOGGERS], steal your soul. Trust in Jesus!!

Anonymous said...

Patrick... I think that you have a lot of personal work to do on yourself. I am not so sure that Jesus... the great metaphysician that he is would have you represent or somewhat "speak" on his behalf the way that you did. I think that if you really understood the teachings of Christ... you would have NEVER come accross that way. It's funny... I really do understand some of the dependency issues about 12 step programs but the way the you went on.... YOU sounded like the cult leader. And the real ironic part is that you ended it with "PEACE BE WITH YOU" There was no trace of peace in your post yet you wished it for her. Amazing!