I’ve made a choice that I will share work related stuff with this blog. I thought that by making a clear distension between AA and work I would be able to help AA people who read this blog, but I was wrong. Work is related to sobriety. Yaco, my new sponsor understands me so much. In just one phone call he told me he drinks Jack Daniels, a drink that I’ve avoided because of how crazy it gets me. I called him out of total desperation. He called me out!
I’m at an impasse. I want to drink and I want to get sober. I need to get sober because of the work I need to do to open the new store, and what I need to do at the transition store. However, I need to drink because my muscles don’t work properly without alcohol. They do if I sober up after a few days, but… it takes a few days.
So, I’m going to try this. I have no reason to do this. June W. doesn’t love me any more, I’ve lost my crew at both stores, and I have no real boss. Yah, I want to drink about it.
But, I have Yaco. Today. If my muscles fail, I’ll let you know.
Without Wax,
3 comments:
I know you can do it. Be strong.
I could be wrong about this but, it seems to me, that people who stay sober get sober for themselves. Not the job or the wife...
I used to stay sober for myself, and for the sober community. Then it seemed like everyone I trusted in the sober community screwed me. I stayed sober for myself for seven months after that...then drank.
People in the sober community say, "Trust me", then I got screwed.
At this point, I trust the people at work more than I trust a lot of AAs. I've had sponsors that ask you to open up to them and then when they find out a little truth, they say, "You're not working the steps, bye!"
Gaining and loosing trust in the AA community is just like any other community. You can't totally trust anyone.
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